What is The Lunar Portal Releasing?

What can we change? And, where do we waste the most energy that could be used elsewhere? Not to fix, nor hide away from, but to truly change? What if the edifice that most needs to crumble is that of expectation, projection, and then, oh so justifiable, criticism? What if this deadly edifice has been a prison for our hearts? What if the urge to blame is so ingrained in the current collective that it desires the dubious honor of ‘last program standing?’ What if?

Yesterday’s full moon in Capricorn wove quietly. Or so it seemed. It was a deep breath before the Tower took over. I have learned to love the Tower image, especially the one from the Rider-Waite deck, with its lightning bolts and plummeting bodies. Weird, right? Or maybe this image has been a form of comic relief that has helped me keep perspective and a sense of humor through uncomfortable events.

I wondered, during yesterday’s deep Silence, if my body had acquired some sort of addiction to the Tower process. Its results are certainly proven. But, perhaps a gentler way is birthing. I will certainly welcome it. I kept hearing strains of the song The Monster Mash while preparing for bed. Not one to sleep through a sign like that, I sat with the replay in my head until I began to belly laugh at the blatantly ridiculous lyrics, not of the song, though they are terminally silly, but of my own life. The montage of ‘monster’ has been obvious, of late, and not in the “OMG look at what’s happening in the world” way one might think. Is the Monster Mash a survival program? Of course!

What we observe as showing up in the behavior of others, especially at this time, is what is purging from our reality. We need to release rather than react. If everyone did that, the global collective might indeed become a cesspool no one wants to surf, but aren’t we, in some ways, already there?

Marcus Aurelius, in his Meditations, wrote, “You are the problem.” The best-engineered programs that run us defend themselves in every possible way. One of the most common is that of blaming. No matter how much work any of us have done on our own reactivity, which is the true source of all blame, there is a sewer-surfer ‘9th wave’ of denied blame circling the planet. Have you ever watched the energy waves as they circle the globe? Sadly gobsmacking.

So, in the middle of the night, I asked, as openly as I could, “Am I really so self-absorbed that an energetic survival instinct turns into self-righteousness? Still?” My physical body’s answer was “Yes,” and not from a place I recognized. Wow. Well, I am often accused of a ‘superiority’ attitude that is part of being a mirror for others. I am blamed for being the mirror others will not look into. Not fun, and no longer ‘part of the job,’ or so I’m shown. The trick of surrendering the ‘job’ of being a phase-plasmic mirror and karmic-catalyst for others is, of course, surrendering whatever parts of self have bought into the whole victim-tyrant-rebel-saviour matrix that has infiltrated what many call 3D. Which part, covertly of course, do our programs want to play today? And, of course, we won’t hear the call for “Action!” Yesterday’s full moon was a portal into a deeper recognition of reality.

We all want peace, love, harmony, and joy, yes? Silly question. We know all answers come from the Source Essence inside us, as our voices are Source’s instructions for our own lives. What do we most need to learn right now? Listen to what we are saying and thinking. I hear from many of us, “Oh, I can’t listen to that stuff anymore.” Good on ya! Good on us! New broadcasting and receiving are now required.

Part of the further phases of awakening contains mixed answers that come from within. A depth-charge piece of programming morphs in many areas but not all, as an example. We know what our holdouts are, by what turns into a Klingon warrior and refuses to let go. The “Monster” programming in all of us has been activated for release. Not pretty, but this particular purge may prove to be very effective.

Some of our deepest, most ingrained belief systems, thought patterns, and habits of behavior are like dandelions, whose purpose in life is to break up and aerate compacted soil. What if the lesson of a deeply impacted expectation-projection-critique program is to aerate us? And, like the ever-reaching roots of a dandelion, bless them, these lessons permeate everything they touch, everything about us. Even our highest, kindest aspirations can be co-opted into these aeration efforts. What if we could NOT react, or respond, or do anything, but simply be with what is purging and let it do so?

This kind of wiring feels impossible to remove. It is designed that way so we cannot hide from our lessons. And, guess what? Removals are not needed. All of the circuitry of these self-betraying, infuriating little creepers needs to transform. These energies are part of us. They seek the light as persistently as we do, covertly, stubbornly, and sometimes terrifyingly when we reach what I like to call the ‘brown belt’ stages of transformation. These stages are when embodiment begins to occur. We must walk our talk. No wiggle room.

The splendiferous news is that, once transformed, these fierce energies are freed to work through us, as the Source within us, to simply be that radiant star, that luminescence we so love in nature. It is our nature, as well. We can be still, in every moment, and know…

The reactive explosion of “I’m not reacting!” has a simple resolution. The part of you with which you self-identify is choosing not to be identified with the program that is reacting, but the truth is that the reactive program is running this reactive moment and wasting your energy. First response? Laugh, as soon as you are able. No shame, no blame in any direction. Weep if you need to. Face the program with the mirror of its acting out. Let the frenzy fizzle, no matter what. Know, in your heart, that this behavior is not furthering your survival in any way that is helpful.

Let the source within take over. This response takes discipline and practice. And, a certain amount of weariness that can feel like “OFFS, whatever. Just change it.”

There is such a tremendous amount of light infusion happening! As your integrated coding is activated, let it be your guide if you feel the need to be led. Or you could just let go.

Yesterday’s full moon was the pause before… every kind of transformation. Amazing that we are honored to be present for this shift.

Enjoy!!!